Why don't people fly?

"Why don't people fly? Why can't we just get up and fly high above? I am thinking.. I want to get away from here, I want to fly high above. From everything that is here in this world. Why can't I fly like a butterfly from one flower to another. Never stay anywhere, but always going there. There. And why do we live? What is life at all? What are we doing here before we go to the other world?"

I wrote when I was 13. I didn't remember I wrote it. It was my mom who read it to me this morning from the diary I wrote long time ago. She said she was reading it all day, and besides some surprise and maybe even fascination with what she read, she also had a "light bulb" moment. Finally I started making sense to her. It's as if after all this years, she could finally see me.

I always knew I was different. But how did I know that I was SO different? If it took my mother this long to figure me out how long does it take others to "see" me? Most people never will. She said only now could she connect the dots and understand why I was the way I was, reading all those books when I was very young, making my own path in this world..

Am I alone? How do I relate to others who don't understand that we are only visiting here and our lives are not ours but our souls'? Have we forgotten who we are? I have forgotten myself from time to time. But I still chose to remember. I don't want to forget. I still want to know why we can't fly...

Meditation

Cheers All,

So, one of my New Year's resolutions was to start meditating again. I used to do it regularly a few years ago, but then somehow fell off the wagon. All I remember that meditation did good for me. I was more connected with myself, and more at peace with anything that happened. But life happened and I got carried away.

Anyway, today was the first time I meditated since then. The result? Already during my meditation, I made a promise to myself: whatever is happening in my life, no matter how busy I get, I'll do it daily. It's that good. Somehow once you sit down, close your eyes, and tune in inside, you find utter peace, utter bliss. It's like a whole new world right there inside you, filled with peace and love. It's all accepting and loving. You feel happy. I do :)

Another great experience happened today that I wanted to share with you. I was sitting with my back to the window, the sun washing over me. As I was basking there, I started rotating my head in circles, and the most exciting revelation happened. As I was moving my head first 90 degrees, even with my eyes closed I would feel that it was dark (turned away from the sun), and then when I would move the other 90 degrees (towards the sun), I would see the light. Just with one head circle (180 degrees) I would see the dark and the light, and that would complete the cycle, only to repeat again.
What was assuring that after the dark there would be the light, and what was certain that after the light there would be the dark again, and so on and so on. So as I was moving thru this experience with the light, I realized that it's exactly how our life goes: light then dark, dark then light. Life is but a cycle of light and dark. It's a contrast. If there was never light, we'd never know what the dark is and hence wouldn't be able to define the light? And vice versa. I know it's confusing. Simply said, if one didn't exist we wouldn't know about the existence of either as there would be no contrast to perceive it.

So where does it leave us? We should embrace the light and the dark, and be grateful for both as that's how we experience life. As well as have faith that after the dark there will be the light again. And not get carried away with the light, for there will come the dark :) I know it's not the most cheerful and easy concept to accept. But once you do, you find balance during any experience that is happening in your life, and that brings eternal peace.

Namaste to all and enjoy your day off if you're in the US!

Bedtime ritual

If you like me, find it absolutely necessary to bring sensuality into your life on a daily basis then this post is for you.

Whether in a relationship or single, it's equally important to incorporate sensuality into your life. Especially when you're single, as we tend to completely avoid it at the time. Creating sensuality around yourself will in an instant make you feel frisky and excited. And then you notice how amazing it feels, and how much love is inside you.

I'll share one of the rituals I do every night when I am single (which I currently am:)
First of all, I always go to bed fresh and clean. Shower before bed is a must for me. Water is therapeutic and is the easiest (though overlooked) way to rinse off the day's energy, and rid your body of any negative vibes you might have picked up during the day. So take a shower consciously, feeling how all the negativity is washing away, the day is over and nothing matters but how you prepare yourself for the next day. Thank water for its wonders.

Always sleep in clean fresh sheets. I prefer white over all colors and they have to be soft and feel nice to my body. Your bed should be your sanctuary where your body, mind and soul rest and recharge for the day to come. Keep lights low, light up a candle right next to you and spend a few minutes staring at it. It's called candle meditation and should help you unwind your mind. Put on some sensual music. If you like to have a glass of wine, make it a small one, or really best to avoid any alcohol. I usually read something, or write my blog, or............

You can do something you enjoy very much, it's up to you:)

Basically, it's about creating sensuality around yourself and falling asleep with it. If done right, you're guaranteed sweet dreams and an easy awakening in the morning, which is the best way to start a day.

Sweet dreams:)

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Life is like an ocean

Today during my yoga practice, the teacher shared the following thought:

"Life is like an ocean. You're standing in it, and then the wave comes your way and knocks you down. You fall deep down with sand in your hair, your clothes, your eyes and throat. Then you get up and see the wave goes away and breaks down. Then a new one comes in and you get knocked down again. And so on and so on, until the time you build resistance and can handle the wave. And then when you get strong, there are no waves anymore but still calm waters."

Perfect timing for this wisdon really as today has been one of those days for me when I felt vulnerable. You know those days, when for no particular reason, you feel small and fragile, as if thrown into the deep ocean away from your loved ones, all by yourself and no one to hang on to? I am sure we all have those days, even the strongest of us:)
Of course those days are rare for me, simply because I can't afford them in my life. But whenever I feel that way, I just want to go back to the time I was a little girl, and my dad carried me in his strong arms. Just a memory of it makes me feel safe and loved.
Whenever we feel unsafe and need some loving, we just need to think of something or someone who made us feel safe and happy. In my case, my dad carrying me. I am sure we all have some memories from childhood when we felt safe and loved.

The days we feel small and vulnerable should be cherished. It's so rare we let ourselves feel that way due to our ego, but deep down we are sensitive beings and want to be loved and cared for. Even though I feel vulnerable I feel the most innocent at the time. It's like all I need is my loved ones around me and feel like I am home. Nothing else matters. Ego is gone and only what really matters in life (love and companionship) is present. Those feelings are important to feel grounded and to understand what really matters in life. So embrace them and treat them with all the love you can give. Think of your loved ones, your parents, your siblings, reach out to them if possible. Or simply hold them in your heart and know they are there for you, just like you are there for them.

And if you ever feel that way and have no one to turn to, email me:) Just reaching out will make all the difference. The most important thing is to see the beauty in feeling that way. We are all connected and love indeed is all there is. We forget about that and feel that it's us against the world. This leads to fear and unhappiness. So when we feel small and vulnerable it's the God's way to bring us back to awareness that we are all one and with God. No fear, just love.

Namaste.

P.S. here are some pics of me and my family (on camel is my older sister). I was born in 80's, in Russia, in case you were wondering about the quality of pics, and my mum's cool hair:)

Ship has sailed

Having been doing yoga for almost a month, I've started seeing the magical benefits of it. Not only has my body become more alive and vibrant, my mind has started responding as well. Good ideas seem to be flowing easily and effortlessly.
Today during my practice I had the most genius vision yet.

The vision I had will be extremely beneficial to those who still think about their past relationships, partners who entered your heart but didn't exit even though no longer present in your life. For those who seem to be reminiscing about old flames and not being able to move on. We all have to believe in abundance of the Universe and it's eternal commitment to give us anything we desire as long as we are ready for it. You can't let in a new relationship if your heart is not free and ready to welcome a new love. No matter how beautiful and meaningful a relationship might have been it's in the past. And past is just a memory but if constantly reminded it takes control of the present and steals away from the future. I do believe that we need to release and believe that better and greater things will come along. Life is a journey and a short one. We need to be present to enjoy it to the fullest.

So here is my vision that you could all apply in order to release any past relationships and be ready to welcome a new partner into your life.

I imagined a beautiful island with palm trees, blue water and white sandy beach. There was a ship by the shore, white ship that was getting ready for a long journey. Then I saw all of the partners I let into my heart, the men who I would still think of and maybe deep down regret that it didn't work out. Maybe even think that there was still a chance with one of them, and especially the ones I didn't have closure with. They all boarded the ship and I knew that they were sailing far far away for good. That I would never see them again. I waived good bye, I even had tears in my eyes, I wished them all good luck and be happy wherever their journey takes them. I did it sincerely. Then as the sun was coming down over the ocean the ship went on its journey and out of my life, out of my heart.

I felt a tremendous sense of relief and so light that I could almost fly. I was happy. As I turned back I saw a beautiful resort with lots of lights, and people smiling at me. They drew to me and put pink flowers in my hair, they put on a red dress on me and lead me to the fire set up in the middle. Beautiful music was playing and we celebrated my liberation. I knew with the ending I started a new beginning...

That was a detailed scenario I experienced but you can vary it to your taste. The most important thing is to truly experience it, see it as clearly as watching a movie. I know it could be hard for many, so that's where yoga and meditation step in. At first you might feel lonely as you've got used to thinking of someone and having comfort in resorting to that person in hopes for love. But this imaginary comfort is exactly what's keeping you from letting in new love and perhaps the most important love of your life. Also it's important to let go off any hurt and resentment. It's important to forgive all including yourself. No one deliberately wants to hurt anyone. Any relationship is a lesson for both and is a blessing for our soul's growth.
I wish you all good luck in your ending for I believe there is a beautiful beginning awaits each one of us. Namaste.